So today I said goodbye to Jeremy for the last time. It was really long overdue, considering. I let him treat me like a body instead of a person for way too long, and I decided that now, while he’s not angry (I hate parting in anger under any circumstances) and I’m filtering out all my good-for-nothing relationships, was a good time to cut ties. He thinks I’m going to “come crawling back” and whatever, but, no. Last time he was angry at me and that upset me, and I wanted to set things right. Now the anger–if you can call it that–is on my side, and in that instance I have no desire to try to make up. It’ll be kind of hard, not having someone to talk to while I’m falling asleep at night, for a little while. But I didn’t really need him, anyway.

So now I’m down to ten contacts in my phone. Down to three friends.. Nelson (who also stands in for Tara), Jake, and Candace. Then I have two work contacts and my family. That’s totally copacetic, A-OK with me. And so today I am going to drop off the Mountain Dew at Pockets’s house on my way to the mall to hang out with Tara. Around 7pm we’re going to go see Kung Fu Panda. And I am going to have fun.

Update

Well, okay, so I didn’t drop the Mountain Dew off–again. I’m starting to feel bad about it. I got to the mall around 2:30 because I saw a storm on its way, and I didn’t want to wait until it hit so my parents could refuse to take me. So I got there, and there was no one there. Mike was working, Casey was working. I went to Walmart and got mouthwash and a soda and threw the soda out on my way back to the mall. I ended up going back to Walmart for a snack, and found those blue corn Tostitos, which I love (they’re purple!), and got a Sprite Zero–no sugar, most importantly, and also no carbs. Well, it was nasty, but I drank a lot of it anyway. I also bought León: The Professional, the deluxe version for $20 at FYE. My mission is complete, after about four years. Huzzah!

Tara, Brandon, and Fernando showed up when I was sitting in the food court drinking my Sprite Gross. We sat there for awhile, and then I threw my drink out and we went to walk. The four of us went to the Dollar Tree to get some candy. After that we were going to go to Hibbett Sports for Brandon to look at stuff, but he decided he wanted to play a game of DDR first. It had started storming before they got to the mall, and it was still going. So while Brandon showed off to Fernando his mad skills, Tara and I went back to the Dollar Tree and bought four little umbrellas.

When the two of us got back to the DDR machine, lightning struck the aluminum awning of the Par for the Course place. You could see everything outside turn yellow for a second. A bunch of people rushed inside, and the DDR machine froze. Brandon and Joel went outside to check out the storm, and lightning struck again, on the other side of the doorway, and hit the tree. I think it was the wind that actually knocked the tree halves apart, one of which apparently landed on the security truck. Everyone stood gaping for a minute, then we headed over to Rex to check the weather channel for tornadoes and whatnot, and Brandon and Joel (of course, the two people with the most metal in/on them) went outside to have a smoke.

There was nothing alarming on the weather channel, so the five of us headed off to Hibbett. On our way we passed Waldenbooks and Brittney was coming out after her shift was over, and she stopped and put her index finger up in the “Aha! I just remembered something!” gesture that maybe only our family does?, and I in return stopped in mid-step and returned the up-pointed finger. She went back into the back room and came out with a little bouquet of flowers and a story about how she had held a book (the last copy about Tim Russert) for less than an hour for this woman, and the woman had brought her the flowers. It was a pretty amusing story. I was like, “Oh. I reminded her of flowers. Ha!”

After we actually got to Hibbett and left we hit Walmart and got Tara her Trolli gummy worms and got Brandon a double cheeseburger from McDonald’s. We went back to the mall and Tara ran into someone she knew, and we all stood around talking for a bit (this is when I went to get the father’s day card). Then we went in to GameStop to make fun of Casey (not really), and after that we left for the theatre. It was barely raining but Tara and I used our umbrellas anyway. The movie wasn’t as bad as I thought it was going to be; Tara apparently didn’t like it as much as she thought she would; Brandon wouldn’t have given it a chance anyway; and Fernando was indifferent, really.

We were thinking about going to the mall after the movies, but it was already 8:40 by the time we got out of the theatre. So Tara and Fernando called home, Brandon walked, and I called home and waited last. Candace texted me at like 8:45 asking me if I still wanted to hang out, and I was a little irked. Unless I’m already out or busy, I don’t do anything past dinnertime. 7:00 is generally my curfew, unless I’m going to Justin’s or going to a bar. I told her I was going home to eat dinner and have time to myself after being out in public all day.

Mom and I swung over to Nick’s friend Tyler’s house to see how Nicci was doing over there with a bunch of kids Mom didn’t know (don’t know if Nicci knew any of them other than Tyler), and I was surprised by Tyler remembering my name. I had an Aww moment but then I was dizzy thanks to the car being tilted to the left. We got home around 9:00-9:30 and I went to bed around 11 o’clock. I hardly even thought of Jeremy. Had some really weird-ass dreams that I don’t feel like writing about, and thus begins day two.

Xiuhcoatl Izcalli~

Sacha Lynn