The most ironic thing about me is how empathetic I am, and at the same time how inept I am at understanding the feelings of other people. Although the feelings I empathize are simple ones, and those I don’t get are the more complex human emotions, it still doesn’t seem to make sense at the basest level.. and furthermore it’s just frustrating to not be able to feel like just about everyone else.

I understand sadness, and depression; happiness, or excitement. These are the simpler emotions, that you don’t need to necessarily know the root of the feeling to be able to empathize with the emotion itself. Happy is happy whether it’s from getting an A on a paper or from getting a letter in the mail unless you analyze it beyond happiness. Sometimes I do that, but for the point I’m trying to make I won’t. It’s an annoying habit, anyway.

Things like love and jealousy are rather beyond me, though. I mean, I can understand being emotionally connected to someone, or being physically attracted to them, and even both these things at the same time. But the notion of being bound to them in a relationship seems like a waste to me. Ruining something great with a relationship just strikes me as counterproductive.

I can’t get why some people feel like they need a boyfriend or girlfriend to “complete” themselves.. and I personally believe that if you don’t feel “complete” by yourself, you’re emotionally unhealthy and shouldn’t be in a relationship until you can learn to be your own person. Relationships should be complementary, not supplementary, if anything.

And I’ll never, ever understand the desire for physical intimacy. Do we really need to be in each other’s personal spaces so often? Some of the things that pass for intimate just sound disgusting, and I don’t see how more people don’t see it that way. I mean, yes, sex for reproductive purposes is necessary for the existence of the species, but beyond that…. I know that my nonexistent libido is the reason behind my views on this issue, and maybe explains the aforementioned bogglement by the whole relationship thing, but I can’t imagine that, when explained factually, many intimate things don’t just sound detestable.